Sianz ... drags tomolo coz it's a working day and the announcement will be made for the cut cost measures.. Si bei Sian leh .. wonder wat will the outcome be. Have been telling myself not to think too much abt it, but still can't help leh. Wonder if the rumors will be true for the cutting pay of 20%. sucks man .. i think i am prepare to throw the towel if it really happens. 20% is abit too much and it will make my oreadi miserable life more miserable. Dun think it will be worth.

just finished doing my long forgotten mask treatment.. hey, all gals all "ai mei" one k .. we can spend tons of dollars on the skincare just to make ourselves pretty pretty.. hehehe... this kind of money cannot save lah, even though married liao, still have to make the effort, alot of competition around hor .. cannot chin chey chin chey.. but then again, given my lazy character,.. it's quite hard leh.

Being a married and working mom really drains all my energy sometimes. Usually, i will take care of the kids during weekends when my mom is out playin mahjong. (it's her offical off days which i cannot deny loh). Sometime, i am really grateful to her, all the help and support dat she has given me. even better than MIL, who oni cares abt money and in her eyes, $$ is the most important thing. I really cannot tahan her ways sometimes. I am scared dat my kids will be like her when they grow up. Actually, being the so-called only child in the family has it's benifits too. Even though i miss my brother deeply and wish dat he can be around to protect me but i think life would neber be the same if he's still around. Maybe i wun be married so early.. maybe mom will be happier coz since young i always believe dat he is the preferred one. When dad pass away when i was 14, my life really change afterdat. I have a very happy childhood which most of my cousins envy. I am like a little princess having everithin i want, coz daddy will neber fail to spoil me no matter wat. When he died, part of me left too.. i was really lost and picked up smoking till now. Hmm... i wonder wat will it be like if daddy is still around. Now being a parent, it really hits mi hard, knowing dat it's neber an easy task. Ppl says dat a woman will change after giving birth and i totally agreed on it. I guess i understand my mom better after being a mom myself. The path she go through wasn't easy and i did not make things easier for her during my pre-married years making her worried for me endlessly. hahaha... i guess my time will come when my gal grew up... really anticipating. I don't realli tok to my cousins and friends abt all this coz i dun want them to pity me. Well, i am still strong and goin on.. with the support of my dearest dear and mom. Life would definately live up and we have been through the worst liao .. so wat is more ?

One pic of me..


all rite .. shall update again tomolo once i got the news of the cost cutting... till then .. chaoz ...
My Memories @ 10:10 PM
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