When daddy and ta ta passed away, nothing has prepared me for dat blow ... it came too sudden and too quick .. i dun have anything to react to, anything to hold on to. i tot i am strong enuf now.. and i am prepared for the demise of gong gong .. but i failed ... part of me had died today ... he has passed away peacefully this morning in the hospice ... when i visited him yesterday .. he seems to be in peace and yet .. he is in coma and he is nt able to tok to me ... no last words.. i cried when i recieved the sms.. thinking of the past .. of how well he dotes on me.. of the way he hold my hand when i was young .. how much he loves us..

cried when uncle david spoke abt gong gong's life.. at the age of 83 years old .. i believe he has walk and enjoy the love of his children and grandchildren.. all of us have grown up and under his care .. most of us has lead our own life, all busy wif our own life.. somehow or rather, i feel like a stranger to them .. and it was gong gong who keep me goin .. tot of the days when i was small , how much i anticipate to goin to his house to play and see him .. everiting changes when daddy passed away .. the mitings get lesser , the phone calls lesser, and the time we spend together is much more lesser... i realli regret for not spending enuf time wif him, not being to be by his side ...
My Memories @ 10:33 PM
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